Anxiety Kitten

I am a messy person. I usually decide a room is clean if I can see part of the floor. “Look there’s a place to stand! It’s tidy.” For the past few weeks, however, I have been trying to keep my house tidy in a bid to reduce my anxiety. This is an anxious process in and of itself.

I had done the Konmarie method back in December-January, when I was taking time off work, also for anxiety, so there was a place for everything to go. I had just left it sitting on the floor and the table and the other table and the benches…you get my drift.

I finally set myself a timer to tidy my lounge for twenty minutes and it doesn’t look too shabby now. It just needs a vacuum, which I will get to…at some point in my life…   It does make me feel a lot calmer though.

Now that I have this calmness associated with tidiness, I get anxious when I see messy things. Yesterday i went to Spotlight for a zip, and I was trying to browse the fabrics, but they were everywhere!!! Mountains and piles all in the wrong order!! I got so stressed I had to leave the store.

Clearly tidiness is a double-edged sword.

Hello, I am Cat! I have anxiety and I love cats, hence the name anxietykitten. I have had anxiety for probably my whole life, and it runs strongly in my family. Recently, the medication I was on, fluoxetine, stopped working, so I have had to take time off work to manage my anxiety and get onto some new meds.

This is not my first blog. I started one about crafting a number of years ago, posted once or twice, and then never posted again! Hopefully that doesn’t happen with this blog!

My plan is to blog my experiences with anxiety and the emotional rollercoaster it brings with it. I will blog about what I find useful and un-useful for my anxiety. Hopefully this will be helpful to others with anxiety.

This is me, and the main men in my life:

 

Feel free to comment, ask questions and give me ideas for topics to write about. I welcome your input, especially if you have useful tips for managing anxiety. I can’t get enough of those!