I am a messy person. I usually decide a room is clean if I can see part of the floor. “Look there’s a place to stand! It’s tidy.” For the past few weeks, however, I have been trying to keep my house tidy in a bid to reduce my anxiety. This is an anxious process in and of itself.
I had done the Konmarie method back in December-January, when I was taking time off work, also for anxiety, so there was a place for everything to go. I had just left it sitting on the floor and the table and the other table and the benches…you get my drift.
I finally set myself a timer to tidy my lounge for twenty minutes and it doesn’t look too shabby now. It just needs a vacuum, which I will get to…at some point in my life… It does make me feel a lot calmer though.
Now that I have this calmness associated with tidiness, I get anxious when I see messy things. Yesterday i went to Spotlight for a zip, and I was trying to browse the fabrics, but they were everywhere!!! Mountains and piles all in the wrong order!! I got so stressed I had to leave the store.
Clearly tidiness is a double-edged sword.
